WHO AM I??

Looking over the events of 2011, and ready to live 2012, LOTS of things changed. I had a family with a stepdaughter, husband, Sabrea, and 3 cats in the beginning of the year. I still have the family, but it shrunk to Sabrea, me, and only one cat (Jetta).

I’m looking at a divorce in 2012. I don’t want to hear “I’m sorry” from anyone. Don’t be—I’m not. When you fall in love with a cheater, you’re bound to get hurt. I took 6 years of getting hurt. I cried when he left, but I picked myself up, dusted myself off, and am changing my life for the better.

I quit smoking [November 26, 2011]. Thanks to Chantix, I have over a month smoke-free! I don’t plan on going back. I’m saving money that I don’t have, and I can breathe! I can TASTE things too! It’s amazing when you’re not polluted.

I’m living in my own apartment, just me, Sabrea and Jetta. I have it decorated the way I want it to. I have room to play Wii without falling over anyone or the coffee tables! I am safe. I don’t have to be scared of boots on the stairs or slamming doors. I don’t have to worry about yelling (not that there was much in my marriage). I don’t have to worry about the mood anyone else is in. Best of all, I don’t have to worry where my husband is or which chick he’s with!

I do have a predicament though. WHO AM I??

I was a woman first. I will ALWAYS be a woman. There are no gender-reassignment surgeries in my future! I am content being a woman…I guess. lol.

Then I was a wife. I am not so fond of football and snoring. I don’t like the feeling of paranoia (as my husband used to call it) of cheating. FYI--It’s not paranoia if the cheating is actually happening! I don’t like being told what I need to do, what I should do, or how to raise my kid. So being a wife is out.

I'm a mom, before and after being married. I’m ALWAYS going to be a mom. When I held my first-born daughter Jada (before marriage--given up for adoption), I was a mother. When I first held Sabrea (after marriage), I was a mother. There are no more planned babies on the horizon, but if it were to happen, I will be a mother. A mom is who I am. I get paid in hugs, kisses, and accomplished grins. I wouldn’t change it for the world!

I was a college student a few times. That was fun! But after two degrees, I wore out my welcome with Federal Financial Aid. A college student I will not be again…and that’s okay! I have an Associate’s degree in Administrative Assistant, and an Associate of Arts degree. Anyone need some office work done??

2012 is the year for my answers. I know I’m an awesome woman. I know I’m an awesome mom. I’m going to “wing” the rest of it! Advice is always welcomed, but not always followed. :) Stay tuned for more updates! Just remember: Three right turns and you’re back where you started!